My Goodbyes

By Carly Floyd

5/21/10

I'm flying high above the world

My home somewhere far below

And yours even farther

Somewhere

Below the clouds

There is life

There is you.

From here, I feel I can escape

And go anywhere

But after all,

Everything must land.

Even me.

So goodbye to all I've left to leave

Paola, Kassy, Evelyn, Amy, Steve

Goodbye to workshop 4

Goodbye to Brynn and the Chopper

Goodbye to history

And to not being the smartest.

Goodbye to room 251

Goodbye to Washington

Goodbye to Close Up

Goodbye

Goodbye me.

The Fall

By Carly Floyd

5/21/10

High above the clouds

A fall like this would kill me, kill me

End me

But out the window of the plane

I see it

Falling through the blue

From the sky

Plummeting

And maybe then I could forget myself

My petty problems

To just have my whole world

Depend on how far gravity could take me.

How long?

How long until I hit?

Maybe I could catch a cloud

And sleep on the white

And live in the sky forever,

above even the birds.

But sooner or later,

you have to come back to earth.

And the fall

Would be beautiful, no?

Forget

Carly Floyd

3/29/10

Slip into the stupor

The endless black in my head

Unfocus my eyes

And detach

Sinking

(Flying?)

Through the nothing

And close

Lashes brush against my cheek

The body sleeps

But I

I am not there

I am somewhere above

Somewhere more

Somewhere

Where I can't remember.

So for now

I can forget

And that,

That is bliss.

Scream

Carly Floyd

3/29/10

This chill

Goes deep

I want to scream.

Because there's nothing I can say

Or do

So I just sit here and take it.

Even when I want to go home

Lay in bed

Sleep and forget.

But I'm bound here

So I just imagine.

(Try)

To fade into the shadows.

Shattered

Carly Floyd

3/29/10

There is a grain of truth

In every hurtful lie.

So silently I sit

Passing time goes by.

And dreaming empty days

For shattered thoughts I cry.

And in this darkened room

My heart begins to die.

Sweater

Carly Floyd

3/29/10

Cold, gray world outside the window

Biting winds shake the panes.

Inside, the cold still reaches me

The blood freezes in my veins.

This inner cold is chilling

Blankets don't keep the heat.

And though I clutch my sweater to my skin

My heart flutters in a fragile beat.

I dream of hidden sunshine

Of fire in the hearth

And suddenly, I feel it

A subtle sense of warmth.

I cuddle in my blanket

Me in my sweater here

And even with the storm outside

In my cocoon, I have no fear.

My Secret

Carly Floyd

3/29/10

Smile

Secret smile

Secret flutter of the heart.

Cause I lie

When I talk to you

I can't even start.

I love

Say I love you

And you will never know.

For you're more

Than I can give you

So now it's time to go.