summer

By Carly Floyd

8/30/10

summer

endless days and night

borderless

season of freedom

of unhurried bliss

full of everything and nothing

seeming so eternal

like these days of sun

will just go on forever

but in just one day

these days of no restrictions end

and yet

this blue sky has never looked so bright

Sigh of Summer

By Carly Floyd

8/30/10

Season of the sun

Of long days in golden light

Of emerald grass, laying on a hill

Watching clouds go by in a clear blue sky

Walking barefoot down the street

Yelling, laughing, getting burned by the hot asphalt.

Season of freedom

Of reading by the pool,

Of bonfires that go well into the night,

Eating smores and telling stories.

Of beaches, and digging your toes into the sand.

Of travel.

Of driving with windows rolled down,

Singing along with the radio.

Carefree summer mind has no notion of time

Or reason

And end is inconcievable

So why

Can't we go on as if this will last forever?

Letting Go

By Carly Floyd

4/12/10

Everyone moving forward

Blurs from where I'm standing

Parting around me,

A river

Me, a rock to halt the waters

Divert them

If only for a moment.

People changing

Moving on from here

While I remain unchanged

Just the same.

Around me, laughter

Talk of plans

Of new places

For their fresh new faces.

And me

I sit

In the same corner as always

Afraid

I want to hold them here

And go on like this forever

But they are moving forward

With me still in my corner

Afraid to get up,

And change

But I know, secretly,

That soon I'll have to let them go.

Summer Sky

By Carly Floyd

6/9/10

In the stifling heat of summer

Newly come

Not yet accustomed to the dry sun

And so all the more unbearable,

I sit

In a dark house, crumbling around me

Windows open, trying to catch

The nonexistent breeze

Through the open window,

The broken screen,

I see a square of pure blue sky

Without a cloud anywhere,

So bright it hurts my eyes.

And I sit there, staring out

Wanting to go outside, and see more

Where my view is inhibited

But the thought, lazy and slow in this heat,

Passes by unnoticed.

And I sit, watching the day go by.

Freshman Year

By Carly Floyd

6/9/10

This building

How many times have I sat,

Staring at the clock, waiting to go home?

How many times have I sat here,

walked there,

done that?

This routine is so deeply embedded.

I feel I could go on forever this way.

(If I could fit forever in a day)

Hey

It seems like only yesterday we talked of that

Was it last month the ceiling fell?

Or I fell in the hallway from laughing so much.

So many memories of thus year

So many laughs, and pictures

So many firsts.

So many people I got to know, to talk to.

I have all of these things in my mind,

I carry them with me.

But now

Now I have to leave, and it will be months

Months until I next see this place, these people.

But I will have changed.

And some things will be gone forever.

So, bittersweet, I go.

Looking back at my school, I say goodbye.

And for better or worse,

Here comes the summer.

Dream

By Carly Floyd

6/5/10

Dream

Fragile Dream

Fragile random idle thought

Born in sleep

Darkened mind

Darkened realm of hidden want

I see

Everything

Every twisting path to take

Then I wake

Tragically

To find that all of it was fake

2 AM

By Carly Floyd

8/19/10

Baby it's 2 in the morning again

We're both tired but neither of us giving in...

I'm sorry for the things I said

But hey

You hurt me too.

And I know I'm a hypocrite,

Asking you to keep the past the past

Cause I can't forget what you said either.

And right now

All I wanna do is chuck the phone at the wall.

Here we go with the threats,

The mindgames.

I'm getting fucking sick of falling into this pattern hun.

But what can we do?

We're both too damn stubborn to wanna fix this.

And it's always times like these when I wonder if we even should.

But the pain in my chest

And the emptiness in my heart

And the tears in my eyes

Remind me why we go through this every night.

I love you...

Can we move past this now?